Almost all of us know that one couple which is married to their high school sweetheart and are in fact happily married.I personally find it adorable that people find love when they're a teenager and they make the right choice by marrying them. Is it sheer luck or years of tough love? Maybe that is why we call it "getting lucky in love".
Isn't it strange that we sometimes run behind that one person who doesn't even care about us and when we are done chasing after them the role gets switched? Love is a complicated yet a beautiful feeling. The funny part is that, its either there or it isn't. You can never force somebody to love you. This is exactly what I've learnt in the past 4 years. So I'm going to narrate my so called tragic "unrequited" love story. Four years ago I met a boy called Keith, well Keith was a family friend and trust me this sounds crazy but its true, I got a huge crush on him since the moment we first talked , though it was only one word but still. After that we started talking on a daily basis and my feelings strengthened. All was going for two years until one day I thought that since we talk so much maybe he has feelings for me too so I confronted him about this.As I remember correctly it was around 4 am when he told me that "you're just a good friend." OUCH! I was friend-zoned but I didn't give up. I still carried that hope somewhere in my heart that someday something might happen. Then one day this old acquaintance of mine sends me a message on facebook and we start talking. This guy was Sean. I started talking to Sean more than I used to talk to Keith. Sean and I had been talking for only a few months when he told me that he loves me. It was way too soon so I thought he must be kidding so I ignored it. Sean and I talked for three years and we never met each other. I used to tell Sean about Keith as I was unaware of his "real" feelings towards me and he seemed pretty okay with it. Then one day Sean and I decided to meet up. We had a brief meeting for about 10 minutes and that was it. Keith was turning into a mystery , he used to compliment me every now and then and it felt like we were more than friends but just not there yet. Meanwhile, Sean was going all hyper and over friendly with me. So one night he called me up and told me that he loves me. I was shocked, I was expecting that but at the same time I wasn't. I told him that he was far too precious to lose but I don't want to be involved in anything at the moment. We argued a lot and there were tears but all's well that ends well.
Everything was going so smoothly but as they say, whether time is good or bad it definitely changes. My parents decided to send me to a boarding school. So for a month while I was away I would sit and think who should I choose but in fact I didn't have an option. Sean was highly immature and used to crib and get angry on petty things, Keith was mature but he just couldn't reciprocate the feeling. So I decided to go for the guy who loved me and that was Sean. So when I finally told him that I choose him he was speechless, and not in a good way. After a few days he told me that he can't talk to me anymore as it didn't feel right and blocked me out of his life.
Though this incident happened only two weeks ago but sometimes I still think about it. Was it my fault that I lost both the guys? Well one cared way too much for himself then he could ever care about me and the other didn't care at all or maybe he just as a friend. So I would sincerely like to thank you for reading this long post. If you have any suggestions or advice I would really appreciate it. Its not easy losing two people who mean so much to you at the same time. My final question is , what happened to that love, did it just vashish into thin air or faded with time when everything was perfect?
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